WHO AM I

My blog is about solving some things in mental health that have never been documented before. I know how you get mental illnesses right through to how you recover. So who am I? How come I  think I have solved something as big and important as mental health.

Im Neil from Sydney Australia, and yes I have worked out some things in mental that may or may not be discovered one day. I went through a variety of things and was able to work out how the mind works. For sure no one has gone through what I have to be even able to work it all out in the past and will never happen again. I will describe what happened from the very start and talk about all things relevant.

I had a good child hood and good at school, despite giving it no effort. I was the top at maths from the start and just always like numbers. I was poor at English and have no creative side. I think and always have in terms of mathematics. By that I don’t think about things that cant be solved and don’t like the feeling of thinking about the same thing over and over. My head has always been clear this way and have enjoyed the feeling of being clear headed and emotionally strong. I have always been happy and was never abused and at the age of 42 didn’t know about mental illness or any part of that field.

The only thing I had go wrong in my life was a gambling addiction for 10 years from the age of 18. I tried to get over it many times but was only able to when I really got to the bottom of the issue and fixed my life up and haven’t gambled since with out even trying not to. Since then if I have a problem I just take care of it on the spot or nearly die trying to. I don’t think about things and I just do them. I don’t worry about anything.

After a few years of being with my ex partner and mother of my kids, I started to see there was something seriously wrong with her and it ended up being the worst disorder there is known to man. She had just taken the kids away and now I have a real problem on my hands. I didn’t feel like there going to mentally safe with her and its always been something so important to me, so I put in a huge effort to try and expose her disorder and get the kids safe.

I tried and I tried to prove she had this disorder but nothing worked, I also have the mental abuse she was doing to them as she filmed it all in secret. I would go through the video’s many time trying to piece together what she was doing and how this causes mental illness. I would be the first person ever to have such video. I also start to learn about mental health and other illness through support groups on facebook. I had no mental health knowledge previously and was able to get all information from people with disorders right from ADHD/dep/anx all the way through to psychopaths and had no pre-concived thought on how you get mentally ill to how you can fix disorders.

I was working on this about 18 hours a day for 12 months and just developed more and more knowledge and this big general direction I was heading that I had worked something out within how the mind that works in with emotions and different forms of abuse to become mentally ill. Depending on what you have been through abuse wise will be the the personality disorder you end up with

I  had put a lot of effort  with no distractions and a very clear mind to be able to think on this level. I also was in a pysch hospital for 2 months with nothing wrong and went into anxiety disorder when I came out. I was able to fix my self and before that had fixed my boy from having ADHD.

Everything I did all ended up pointing to how the brain learns and thinks about things and process information that is felt by your emotions and at a certain level of emotional low a disorder kicks in that is a set way of thinking and cant be altered and to remove the disorder requires the repair of yourself emotionally which is hard to do as it will be hurting you emotionally at the same time

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