Human beings have emotions. Emotions are effected from the thoughts we have from our brain. The thoughts we have from our brain are from the experiences and what is taught to us through out our life. When we experience something in life we feel this in some way that to some small degree makes us stronger or weaker. If our life takes us on a journey where the thoughts we have are scewed in such a manner that our emotions get weak enough then a mental illness or disorder becomes possible. It may be the humans mind protecting it self from getting to weak emotionally. At the high end of those with mental illness are those who have gone through some form of abuse during those years of developing emotions causing negative and cyclical thoughts that they didn’t enjoy emotionally and caused them to be weak in some way emotionally where a mental illness or personality disorder became part of there mental being. At the high end of those that are mentally strong are people that have gone through experiences where there thoughts have been of fun, love and new experiences they enjoyed that have positively effected there emotions and made them mentally strong.
It sounds complicated. Put simply, your level of emotional strength reflects what your emotions have been through. Emotions are just human instincts that guide us though our lives by giving us feelings of what is good or bad inside trying to protect us and lead us down the path of what feels good or what gives us the most joy. Due to circumstances of life we do not all ways have a choice to evade situations where our emotions can be negatively effected from other people who we may be dependant also in some way. Some people do not have an understanding that there actions effect others in negative ways due to issues in themselves emotionally from what they have been through often referred to as being toxic.
I first started to realise that mental illness comes from what your emotions have been through due to personal experience where I joined an online group for victims of a certain kind of abuse. Cutting a long story short, I ended up chatting with some people that had many different mental illnesses or disorders and they had all been through the same life from the start where one of there parents had NARCISSIST personality disorder (NPD). They were all the second child in the family and refered to as scapegoats. You could say they were abused emotionally from birth and the result is not very nice with what they go through mentally. It seemed like they had all ended up quite similar or virtually identical to each other mentally as a result of them going through a similar life.
The reason why they were the second child is that someone with NPD abuses the first child in a different way and they end up becoming this same disorder as the parent. For me it was an introduction into a world I could barely believe to be true and not possible for anyone to believe exist unless you have experienced it for your self. I tried to explain it to others but no one gets even 2% into understanding how the world of narcissism works so I wont go on to much about it. But I had the experience of my kids at a young age suffering quite bad mentally and later even found the emotional abuse that they were going through as my partner had actually secretly filmed it. It was nothing even that bad and just a load of little things that were all just a bit odd in reality, but all things that would do you no good emotionally.
But this sparked a bit of an interest or obsession from with in me a while back that you basically are emotionally what you have been through life experience wise and how these emotions we have work with in us. I joined other types of support groups for those with other types of disorders and it seemed like other mental illnesses had been through different kinds of abuse generally from that young age. Eventually after much more research from with in these support groups and a lot of logical type thinking about how the human brain works pieced together this puzzle of the mind that I think ends up with there being this direct correlation of what you go through mentally or emotionally will be the resultant strength of the person or disorders that may eventuate.
What I didn’t know was that with in mental health this was not really documented as being the reason for mental illness. It was more of that a certain percentage of people abused got mentally ill and the rest was some mystery of what ever anyone wanted to believe was how you got mentally ill. But from what I had noticed was that the percentage was closer to 100 and it didn’t make the slightest bit of sense to me that going through abuse as a child and how bad that would be on a child but also on developing emotions and what they would of been through mentally and onto them getting a mental disorder possible for say someone like myself to become mentally ill who had a good child hood and was mentally strong. I thought that there is no comparison possible to be made in what I had been through mentally to someone abused throughout there child hood and being dependant on that person at the same time.
I cant think of anything bad that happened as a child against a poor kid laying awake at night not being able to sleep due to having racing thoughts of some type of incidents he might of been witness to at the very least. Going through mental illness at a young age and not knowing why he is so troubled from the earliest of ages as that was the only life he knew is nothing I can relate to but I also thought it was definetly such a painful thought and reasonable to now have a personality disorder as a result.
After a while and lots of thoughts about this I felt as though the whole mental health thing made sense and was sure how human emotions worked and the cause of mental illness was some sort of situation where a persons emotions had been through experiences that ended up in them being weak as the cause of mental illness. Beside there not being a reason for mental illness documented in any certain way, there is also no cure for any type of mental illness and this would probably be a result of there not being a cause of mental illness. Then onto how is it possible that I felt I knew the cause and why did no one else in this industry have these ideas when it seems a bit obvious that abuse causes mental illness at a certain percentage at the very least. I’m not someone special and have no training in this area so I couldn’t see it possible that I worked out something others could not and looked for possible reasons in how it possible that there are probably millions of professionals all researching into possible causes of mental illness and none looking at some form of mental abuse being the reason. It is called mental health for a reason and its all got to be mental as the only rational I could think of. There was no image ever taken of someone with mental illness that come up different so maybe there is not this chemical or just unluckyness type situation where people got mentally ill.
The only explanation I could come up with is that to feel the intensity on the mind of what its like to go through abuse is something you have to go through or you just cant even relate to it. When the human mind cant relate to something then it tends to not be even able to think about it. Doctors or those looking into mental health research are all highly intelligent and well educated and not mentally ill, hence not from an abusive back ground, so there mental health knowledge is from what has been taught to them and not from any life experience. They are not taught that mental illness is a result of what someone has been through emotionally so they cant know it as a result I think is the only possible thing I can think of. Up until a couple of years ago I thought I knew a little about mental health but I really knew nothing. I hadn’t been exposed to any type abuse or persons with mental illness and my thoughts just started and ended with that some people are just crazy like most people. But because of personal circumstances and what my children will be exposed to I dove into an area where there are people who have been through and going through virtual hell and no sign despite what people think in general of there being any help for them or even understanding. And its not like there are just a few, there are millions with mental problems and billions being spent and no results of any progress being made in any direction, only increases in the numbers of people with mental illness. I don’t think anything will ever be worked out within mental health now. There is just to much teaching out there that are probably wrong and no one who can relate to those with mental illness. I know myself and how people are, once you believe one thing or you have been taught something its virtually impossible to change your opinion especially if you don’t experience it for yourself.