Ive been writing this blog for about 6 months now and it revolves around figuring out what is the cause of mental illness. I feel I know the cause and its always how our mind processes some form of abuse that makes us emotionally weak to a level where a personality disorder becomes part of our mentality to protect the mind from getting so weak that it dangers our very survival. I think I know every step of the way and to go into detail would require books of writing. But a lot of the learnings I got to how the mind works and personality disorders and abuse works comes from personal experience or life experience that took me years to understand and if I didn’t go through it then I don’t believe I would of had the interest for one to ever give it thought or the care to want to understand something as complex as mind and mental illness.
To understand that our minds and emotions at birth are virtually completely blank and we have to develop both mentally and emotionally from what we go through in life and that our steepest periods of learning both emotionally and mentally occur at a time before we can even remember anything is far beyond what anyone is able to take in to there mind and process. That’s because there are millions of things possible that we go through and being flexible enough to determine what things are going to hurt us emotionally and what makes us stronger is way too hard for our minds to do. And when a lot of the issues come from before anyone can recall then its just impossible.
We understand how we work in general and think this is how people work. But some types of personality disorders don’t work like that and can work in reverse to how a normal mind works. But it takes years of being with a personality disorder to understand how they work and to not apply normal logic to them in thinking about how they work. One of the most common ones basically feels good about the suffering of others and a major cause of mental illness. That it targets its own children to suffer and that’s the opposite to how people can think about there parents and from what they have learned through personal experience. And at the same time doesn’t show to up to anyone that there is anything wrong or ever come into contact with mental health. It’s not even possible to believe how this disorder is unless you have been around it for years. That its possible for someone to have no feelings and how that effects those close to it.
There is a reason why there is more research into mental health than you can believe possible and that there has never been the smallest break through into cause or the cure and that’s because its just to hard to understand on so many levels. And that what you learn about mental illness is not even correct and leaves a person researching mental health with a base knowledge of fact that wont take it any where.
Its fine to analyse normal minds and that’s what psychology does and try to help people who don’t have mental illness increase there quality of life and is a field massive in its self. But if your talking about proper mental illness from ADHD to depression, anxiety, all the obsessive compulsive right through to psychopaths then its going to be a case that piles of research will not go anywhere and mental illness will increase as time goes on.
Personality disorders are extremely hard to understand but also the disorders them selves don’t want to be fixed. The people that have them do but the disorder which is like an attachment to the mentality of a person will try and avoid getting help. Like little things like this you can say but unless you have personal experience of seeing this and that’s never going to happen to nearly everyone than how can you genually believe such thing.
Every step of the way might be a dead end to trying to understand mental illness enough to be at a level of thought to be able to help someone with mental illness. its kind of depressing to get so far in thought and see the dead end sign at the end. Im just glad I don’t get depressed and see just moving on as the only option. I never thought that working out something to do with mental illness would go any where anyway but I thought there would be at least information there if anyone ever wanted to look at it or add it to there knowledge but its all too hard. Im not saying it arrogantly either as I think ive got my head around it, but some was from personal experience and in the beginning some of the thought behind it to work things out required the clearest of clear heads and often days to go through what I was working out mostly with no idea where I was going and had the motivation of the kids as there was possible problems for them to feed off, but that went no where as well
Im a terrible writer but I see a few doctors and people with mental illness reading the blog and em nearly embarrassed at how I explain things but I hope they got something off it to make up for the pain of trying to understand what I was getting at. Writing is a great way for the mind to express it self and I needed it going through a tough period of my life but I could never put down my own feeling. I think I can handle them without expressing them out loud but I wouldn’t recommend it