Spiteful
Grief-stricken
Uncomfortable
Inferior
Suspicious
Absorbed
Exhausted Weary
Melancholy
      Bitter Scornful Hateful
    Interested
        Indifferent Confused
        Hopeful Anticipating
  Lonely Alienated
    Stunned

Disillusioned

        Resentful
    Uncertain Confused Disillusioned
        Bored
  Nervous Concern Cautious

Awkward
Hesitant Uncomfortable Dreading

Worried Panicked

Restless

Anxious

 

 

    Fearful Horrified

Scare Afraidd

    Dismayed Powerless

Hopeless

    Angry Grumpy Outraged Annoyed Frustrated Hostile Irritated Aggravated Disgusted Rageful
         

Insecure Self Jealous

        LonelyIsolated
    Sorrow Pity guilty Regretful
    Attraction Infatuated

 

        Humiliated nsalteId

Defeated

Embarrassed

        Envious Distrusting
      Disappointed  Depressed Sorrow HurtDisliked

Insecure

  Rejected Hurt

Disgraced Helpless Humiliated Rejected

Neglected Hopeless

Shamed Helpless

Compassionate Caring Safe Pleased Relaxed Liking Carin Enthusiastic

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Liking Eager

Caring Relieved Brave Intrigued

Joyful Confident  Tenderness Anguished  Calm Preoccupied

Ambivalent

Delighted Amazed

 

 

Trusting

 

Cheerful

Sympathy Elated Content

Adoration

 

 

 

Proud

Fondness

 

Optimistic

 

Satisfied

Receptive

 

 

 

Excited

Interested

 

 

 

Amused

Delighted

Disturbed

 

 

Elated

Shocked

Overwhelmed

 

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Reading this will blow your freaking mind,,,,, or do nothing at all.. a big fat zero… THE TOPIC IS EMOTIONS

 

I would be one of the most unemotional people on the planet, i dont get angry about anything , dont read into that to much or you will think i dont give a fuck about stuff its just how i developed emotionally. Every one develops there own way emotionally so we are all different individuals. Some things changed us a little and some things changed us alot at the end of the day and that just how it all works.. what ever your mind recalls the most is what is what will have the greatest effect and you got not control over it so what ever it is it is…

When i was 10 this happen to me and for 32 years i thought about it probably 3 times a year for the next 32 years without thought, it just popped in my head and it felt good just like it did when it happened and i was never even aware of it the whole time but i will then tell you how it changed me and IT WILL BLOW YOUR MIND…

So i was 10 and i played a lot of sport and was pretty good at most things, Very competitive like anyone else but i wasnt as fast. I was a skinny kid and i still am, my dad, my pop and my kids are all skinny and tall. It doesn’t matter if we eat all day we dont get fat… So im competitive and i could win the longer races and had no chance in the shorter ones. It was 800 meters so i would fall right back and then start catching at the end and be maybe 10th out of twenty.. It was the regionals so i had beaten everyone at school and i was just happy to be there. But this day i took off and got to the front and was just kept going. Everything just clicked and it was just my day. The whole way i ran as fast as i could and didnt get tired and felt awesome the whole way… I didnt know it and no one ever realises it, but my emotions kicked in when i got to the front and’i ran on emotions the whole way… I know that now because i still remember little bits of the race and those little bits still have the actual emotions on them to a less extent.  I never won another race ever again. It was back to the same after that. But when i finished i went up to my mum or step mum in the stands were she was sittimg and she hit me with the biggest hug as she must of been excited seeing me at the front cheering me on and xhe was pumped up and hit me with a big hug and was a good moment. It didnt mean much at the time cause i was 10 but that memory pops into my head every now and then and always feels good, i never thought why or anything, and no one ever does but about three years ago out i started to understand why i was how i was. I’m feel like the most normal person on earth but i”m nothing like anyone else. So over time i have been able to piece my whole life together and how i am is exactlty what happened to me emotionally from day one.. With it being heavily waited to the the start of my life..I understand how emotions work and that took a long time but as i was working out how emotions work and myself my mind kept going deeper and deeper into my past and little things i had never remembered were still there and the emotion that you felt at the time to a less degree is there to and when you recall it you get that feeling again and your mid processes it and stores it back in your memory and the next time it pops in your head it feels good again but a little less until you forget. And that how people work and you become who you are..

This has taken an unbelievable amount of work to work all this out and you cant just believe what im saying as emotions don”t work like that, they have to feel. What they feel is the truth.. And it all depends on how you are at that point in life as well. So there is only ever the smallest adjust in how you change ever and most things dont give you any feelings but slowly over time you become who you are. And there are no exceptions. You emotions can not change unless they experience the feeling for themselves. Its impossible even. But for now i will just continue as its taken a while to figure this out..

So how did this change me??? This was my only hug i ever got from my mum and my dad never hugged me. But he was a good bloke my dad, i never seen him do or hurt no one or nothing, he has got a bad bone in his body. My step mum never loved me like all her kids and i all ways knew this too. But it never bothered me as i had a great life and my grand parents who i spent alot of time with loved me as much as you can be loved. All of it was nothing i ever thought about either way but looking back now it all had an effect… Until i was 42 this remained in my body as the best moment in life 32 years until something happened that felt better emotionally.. I think a mother is the most import thing in a childs life. There is no one to me that is better than a good mother. I dont mean all mothers, im just talking about the good ones. I only like good people in general and all my mates are awesome dads as well but a good mother stands above and its something i never had but always known. A man can do any other great thing in life but can never get to the level of a great mother in the family. To get to that level you have to have the things inside of you that produce a baby and carry it and give birth to it and all that experience in life is not able be had by a man so he doesnt have chance to get to a level emotionally women does with the children’.

I dont have love for my step mum, i think she just a nice woman, I dont have love for my dad, but he is one of the best bloke i ever known. I love my nan and pop and my pop is the best man i ever known. And the reason why my dad is such a good bloke is of his parents. The reason he doesnt show any effection in that way is cause he never had any either. I cant even imagine a hug off my dad anyway, It would be too weird.

I never till out of neccessity thought anything about anything really in life till i started working out this emotions stuff which became a necessity for survival and i can tell you now, no one knowns about this stuff much but its the answer to every question of to why things happen. Why a person is like they are and just every thing. Emotions dont lie and everyone has them and its them that is driving the person.. But anyway,

My dream at the end of the day was to just have a nice family and all the rest was just stuff that would come. So i got to the family stage and my boy was nearly 4 and like always, im just happy and strong mentally and i just never had a bad day, nothing bothered me and the last 4 yeats i had just got to the point where i thought, is it normal to feel this good all the time. Nothing could knock me down. For 4 years i had got out of bed and went straight to work early, work all day outside fixing peoples roof that were leaking and then come home and go straight into looking after the kids till they went to bed and then do my thing which often involved my partner, but mostly i avoided her. and over 6 years my i just got better at my job and even on raining days i just keep going with out thought. I never missed a day and when you go to work in the rain and you finding leaking roofs with the way of thinking that i have and i get to that later, but you end up pretty good at what you do. . And all this came from nothing, i am not a qualified roofer. I was just cleaning gutters and im always going to say i will have a look if im up there and see the problem. I had unlimited work with it backed up and i just did it. I didnt care about worry or ‘nothing, i just did all i could, i never worried and other stuff much either. But as a man, its a pretty good feeling when you go from nothing to good with hard work and at the same time your job is to use your brain to work out the problem and after a while the rain didnt matter’, people just want the leaks to stop. Then i get all the work that others cant do and you just progress to a higher level where i had the knowledge of all the ways things can leak, with this work ethic that never stopped and all i knew was to use your brain and do the job. If it doesnt work, you go back. There is no excuse, my job was to stop the leak. I never into excuses and things. But without thinking over a long time i just felt there nothing i cant fix and people are just so happy after so long being fucked around and you show em with the phone even. And every one want you and its all a good feeling for me emotionally all day every day which i still had no idea what emotions were. Then i went from there nothing i cant fix to im no 1 which is a strong feeling to experience and for me it was super strong. Because all my life, everything came easy with no effort and i even thought for a long time that this was a good attitude, but none of that got me to  feeling number 1, that was straight up hard work and no excuse or never giving up to the job was done over years and years of just keep on going through rain and heat and all this crazy shit i had no idea what my partner who wasnt right but just blazed through taking every thing for what it was and all the rest was nothing i had even time to consider and i developed into what i needed to emotionally. There was never a problem.

But before my boys 4th birthday, he had more than a problem, and it was his mind, and for me my mind was me like, i loved who i was and how good i felt and all my childhood and my boy i was crying for at some point now everyday… All my life on the inside i had confidence in my self, i never doubted myself, even though is was lucky to get through after the effort the first 30 years and my boy had hit zero confidence and i worked out that if i want to be happy i that going to me fix my boy or the happyness is going to end and end badly, and this was not my thoughts this was my emotions that i was becoming aware of more and more out of necessity.

By this time, i new my partner now wasnt right, i had no idea what mental health was yes, i never ever met any one with a problem before, but i new it was a disorder, i new it couldnt be fixed, i new it was her that was the problem with the boy, but i also new that a mother is the most important… I knew it was her, but it never crossed my mind she would do something to her child…

I cut back on the work and focused on my boy. I didnt know it until later but he had gotten ADHD and when i focused on him i fixed it and went further that that and he was now the most confident kid and got all his friends back and it didnt take that long. I was hoping at first that he just have a chance to go to school in some sort of mental shape. But this feeling i got replaced my old best one and i would be suprised if anyone felt what i felt by fixing my boy. No drug or nothing can give this and i got like three months of all the things in my memory and every minute is there, i remember every nlitle bit of this time. Then over the next 9 months i was getting better at understanding how my partner worked and how she could effect my boy over 2 days if i wasnt around and then i could get him back up to this high level agian and maybe 15 times this happened and it was just some thing i did. Slowly as well ability to work out my partner was getting better and it was causing her to react in ways that were the opposite to what you would expect..But i was now barely not working as i wanted to protect the children from there mother and still it didnt cross my mind that she could be hurting her own children. In my mind a mother was the most important thing and it its hard to change you mind when its like that because your emotions have developed this, but slowly i seen more and more and my mind was able to adjust to the reality of the situation. My actual belief didnt change because its true in a factual way.

I was getting so close to working this out and she split and took the kids and two days later i found it. Its called a malignant narcissist. They abuse emotionally and there is nothing you can do because no one understand emotions. People will think your crazy when i tell em what she would do, and it wouldnt even register in there own mind. Not one person. I know a few now but there all the children of a mother with the same disorder A malignant will break her childrens mind and they become the same as her except the second one which will have about seven other disorders including seperation anxiety so they cant leave there abuser any way was this situation i found my self in now 21 months ago. Mow this is something i can not just accept, my emotions will not allow it, acceptance isnt an option, i have tried and my emotions react and there aint shit i can do about it. And it took a while to realise but for anyone else to understand what i  or my children can know is impossible to learn, you got to go through this stuff’. And its true for all mental illness that regular people cant understand what is the real understanding. Even the person cant understand it because they have the disorder that wont allow them.. The one i understand just happens to be at the end, there is nothing after malignant. The top psych in the world has much less chance of understanding this than some one with no psych training. he has his mind set and it doesn’t work that way. Even regular narcissist psycho’s toxic or any disorder there is i would say zero to maybe 10 percent of what you would need to understand maybe depression.

I’m not saying i understand say borderline or what anyone has been through, i joined this group like others when i was just trying to understand mental illness and causes. From my perspective then it was like ok for this disorder to happen what someone mind must go through seems to be very high from what i can make out and very heavily skewed to women.. The suffering for some is at the high end but the mentally is far stronger than how others who have been through trauma much less. So i dont have an understanding of borderline just normal emotions. But the thing is and it takes a lot longer to explain that you get borderline when certian emotions are the ones that are effected. Borderline is from a certain few emotions that were not developing due to a trauma which we all know what is. There will be the odd case where people havent been through that but what would of occured is there mind constantly thing about whatever that caused the same emotions to be effected.. and also there seems to be quiet a lot of human error and a few of these disorders have a big overlap…

This might be to early to introduce, and you cant ever look it up because basically, when i say people dont know some things about mental illness and i guess you can understand that too as currently that dont know what cause illness or the cure which really means they dont know anything….any way you will believe this if you been through it emotionally….. After say a trauma you had no option but to think what ever you mind was in it… now emotions need to grow in a certain way so that a person can progress in life or the whole thing doesnt work called survival’… Now when some emotions cant develop because the mind is constant thinking uncontrollably about event that are not  good it has the effect where you dont feel good either, and this can go on where you feel worse and worse and you damage your emotions for ever ‘. Once certain emotions get to a level that is to low or damaged and it around the constant level of borderline then the disorder start to present and over time attaches to your emotions….. This disorder then protects those emotions being damaged any further as the disorder isnt effected by your mind thinking about certain things… But the disorder then encourages certain thoughts because that what they like. So the things that you think and do the most are caused by the disorder and its just like everyone else you do things because that is what your emotions are thinking about.. You often feel bad or it doesntr make you feel good because your regular emotions while not getting damage still warn you of things that are damaging but are now protected.. Everyone probably has depression for example, where depression encourages you to think negative because that what it does and then when you do it feels bad because regular emotions discourage  that… Y’know  so self esteem and lot of other things are able to develop..

 

 

will continue latter

 

 

Not even that;s a relief cause for 60 years we been looking in the wrong spot fpr every illness that was staring at them, with some new found hope, All they give a shit about is that they keep fooling there selves that there ever done anything to help a person out which is there job , and wont even look,. every body keeps looking for something we already the answer…

Even basic stuff like ADHD already know how to fix, but not one little boy will know about that, and then i can make my argument as strong as i want, because i got all the answers with this, except when retards get in your way ……..and the people they effect is little kids,,,,  and i don’t get to feel some joy that a 4 year old got at least a chance in life causes me to just try harder..

Im a cunt about somethings. it is why i worked it out, ‘i’m a  cunt, I like how i am, so i like cunt, yes it did cross my mind to the refer to women in this group as that  cause i do see things a bit different and is a very positive word in my life way above princess and even hot lips, but i know how the human mind works and i didn’t discover mind transfer shit where a group will be cool, with… u get my point i hope.

But going back a bit, i tried to harder to get my point across, and that didnt work either, but found tonnes mire stuff wrong that just goes way past ridiculous, and just saying it will make me look like a cunt in front of people i actually respect.

So yes, o will say straight up, i have made an assumption, i may be wrong , but i know the system and feel there might be a chance that if you look at  hard enough, then it possible, you be fucked over somewhere down the  line..  And you might be interested in my offer, that, i put in after this great big discovery i made which may be a bit hard to understand first go, but i assure you this is the shit , SO good luck… ITS  ABOUT EMOTIONS

 

 

THE srory    (just the basics, the full one doesnt even end its that bug

  

SStraito the point of the mund os that its always thinking or processing for you, and to do that emotions are used ad they are part of the mind to. All day every day  100s pf times over your mind carried out this process,.. And what iys going if you were able to step back and watch in fast motionits, of a baby starting off with nothing but her parents to show her the way as her hope of survival . Wbat you will see is basically someone develop  to what they experienced in life. With each little processed thougtht that was positive a little feeling inside that felt good.. This will then give your emotions  a little development  and that thougtht is then stored with the feeling you felt.]And is part og now what you ban use to solve a problem and you can see that you have a little more knowledge and a little stronger mentally..,,,,,,,,,,FOR ME,,,,,,,,My whole life was good, i never even seen bad, , i dont have that as even an option. My emotions would hate it and i would feel bad.. It just cant happen and doesn;t even male sense

My whole life just keep giving me feelings from mu emotions and that s how i adjusted through\ . the worst psychopath in hisrory had my life he be just like me too.. ] now that and there isnt even doubt, it facr how good these emotions work….

Up until a couple of years ago. the best thing i had ever experirnced in life was as a ten year old and won a 800 race….i kicked at the start and got in front and just didn’t stop. I still remember bits of the race just running  far above anything  previous even that same feeling i had at the time are still there,  I  think back and i get emotionally stronger . 100 times i remember that moment and it adds up at the end or the day…I havent finished my stoty and after the race i went up to the stands to my mum or my step mum and i was just so excited and  she was just there at the perfect time with a huge hug and my emotions went through the roof.. It was the only hugt i ever had, My step mum was not a bother to me , and it was clear the didnt  have love for me like her own, it never pither me even, cause i had the other bases well covered and was strong,, she never fucjed me over which would of caused damage, and my image of her is a good mum as that what i saw with my brothers and sister.   Ihey all love her and i dont think about her unless it pop up on my head which is my most remember thought as well… I cant have any negative in my life as i dont, work that way anymore, One hug and she us the lady who gave my that memory which lead on to asking mentally ill womem to nelp and i have never asked  for help  ever, but this time without even thinking of all these other ways i can get to my goal, are not even an option , I EVEN k thw answer is, my question is will wnough people learn this stuff  0t qill co yourelf m0re than you ever thought possib;e , I think you will even runover the whole lor of you illness by a good marin , but that is coning from and dont know borderline at all, i chjecked it out and the information i needed was quick and i dont know  the illness, i can raise my self yp to lebel to feel abuse bnut what borderline goes through just getting to the point were you can see that it way gaxe me that info from before.. i would guarantee, you get through, but i know emotions and the a lot to get through and where talking supressed stuff and just what you been through, and while i have seen any of it i have seen a retraction to the abuser as well, and simply just not the informtion to process  the thought and i would try.. but this is the biggest big boy, even diveded up its individually the biggest thing all time

VERY AMAZINGe going through a lot more than what i seem to be relating to, just that regular people find it hard to relate to the heavy stuff and switch off which is not the effect im looking for But emotions work with accuracy and they will react the same for anyone who was at that stage emotionally , but any thing negative right the way through does allow for someone to process there thought and start of circle thinking. Now im as tough as people get emotionally and would welcome a stupid comment of forget about it and move on but people dont need that when its not an optiin for this to occur, it will happen and there nothing a person can do about it unless they have this knowledge  and only i have it at present, So depending on what has happen to someone will infleuence what they are circling thought about and when you circle your thought the mind has a defence for that. The abuse isnt the problem ever its the permant reminder it leaves behind.. verys small problems with regularity will see a person start to suffer with a range of doubts that appear as you become weaker, The mind processes thing so fast that anything slightest negativity in nature cam have the effect of a mind circling that over and aver an basically attacking it own emotions that people are not even aware of the process ocurin..  The abuse i am talking about is minor but it will end in similar results.. And depending on the age you arr at and if there was someone to help you get through  can have exreme  outcomes.. When my parent split i was 18, mple at times, my older btother who would of bee 22 or so and i had never seen him loose his cool would go and drag her out of a pub and take her back home and he  nbursting at the seem about mum going out which im not sue was that often, i missed that, but i rember him think what i though was extreme but good on ya, and its all because you relate your self to some one situation and you get your answer, which is nothing to do with getting that persom actually  help , . it didn’t register with me, but my brother certainly saw the situation from little brother point some how.. but he spent the next 10 years on his sofa, ventuting out family thing where i spot him some money at times to get some food, He never drank or did drugs and on his venture out of the dark cave come a barrage of fetaq job and get , i wasnt doing that to him but i had nothing to help him with other than some cash, and looking back at what he emotions been through and in his prime as well where he would had time to grow into a man would of been in constant decline.. everyone misses it , and i remember my mum begging me with desperation in her face please, he listen to you tell him to get a job is like dropping the fatal blow and not how emotions work at all, but i got lucky and happened to wake up and he was up and i remember it no having the real effect i though i could say but my brother was 14 and dad only moved a street away and he spent the next 3 years and then 10 years on his sofa by himself, with a good mum and dad and brotheres and sister as i didnt know the problem but fashoned some thing up that didn;t at least freeze him and he got off his sofa and drove 6000 km to where there was plenty of work and he made some big money for a bloke who did ten on the sofa…4 yeats later he quit his $3000 aw week job and dragged his new wife her kids which is  a great dad to and his to  which  made 6 of em back to where his family was who were telling him to stay  where he has a job, back into poverty virtually and is as happy  as a bloke can be, so hopefully you can see a couple of declines for things that come from nothing, i cant go into what most go through as i would sill not get up to what its really like but way past what you can handle.  but mental health is a big problem fo the actual people that  are running the show more than you believe in you minds.. I will tell you and again undertate it. firstly whst you think about all mental illness is not even relatable. and that its just suffering om a scale that normal people can not take. i cant and im as strong a normal there is, it a mass child abuse system, where illness start young and festers into multiple, where psych do not no the cause or the cure, which means they no nothing, the only thing they do know is that it comes from child abuse  and most of it is sicken abuse, and if you know about emotion which you dont but the abuser will target  the emotions for effects you can not get close to imagine, with schizophenia what is referred to often as people are familiar with it and psycch has al.ready built up this crazy vision that has no reflection on them and are by far calmer that the average male, bur schitzophenia and they will have others is a child abuse disorder, that even used to be called that and the voiced that appear when they get older stem from what they were going through in there head long after there abuser had gone, it requires certian emotions to suffer that are more of an issue around the age of 18, and its not the illness even that are causeing the suffering, The suffering is from what been drilled into there head and then backed up with server emotional abuse on top abd they never winge or complian that there .been through sjhit and surpress the memories, even hide them and take respoinsibility fot as no one else is.. They are like the illnes with numbers that cany compere to bi polar which is closer to 100  rather than 98% fromsexaul and other neglect and then there is bigger number with lots of illness who have got borgerline from being abused and rapped, and thats up around the 100% mark then narcissist m=and  psychopath that are not even a issue, but somethomg yo van rellate to you can  relate to there  to  and we still havert got into the area of my consern yet = that is cold abuse, with young children comeimg in  with psych. teenage gi,rls bwinf fed. lies even about what there medicatiomn does ,  And  then there is then children that aleo told here isyou  meds and welcone tp a life long multilple, load of illness,. thrsdr boys keep it goimg hard to the end and are lokingfoe the next victomsbi8ctom…. , they

 

it the zero  percent and that not becuase there nor strong enough for it.. These are all normal emotions that if you know about at, it was a negative reaction, probably more so that i had Its probably to late to fix mental health in any way , but if you want to fix anyone than this is where it is at.

 

The learning and the big adjustments to the mind occur when young. When you can focus in on emotions and how they react at a certain stage you are around ten times more effective in therapy, but when your the parent of a child. For my children things that could of taken months for em to develelop like can take days and then there

\ adjustment changes to you as well. And any question about psychology is a focus on there current state and the reactiion that will occurfrom there. If you have normal emotionsand and this knowledge then mental illness for you and your children will not be able to occur. It gives you extreme incite into other people as there natural reply is very certian. I am keeping it in the bounds of mental healthso thinking about mental illness will always involve cyclical thinking. And all mental illness is aboutan emotions declining to the level of the disorder and only then can thr disorder start to emerge, keeping with depression, it will occur when that emotion is the one effected

disorder then appears, then the thinking is weighted from the disorder. It is not the disorder that feels nad. its what you are thinkimg about that feels bad, And the disorder doesnt get effected by it or will it put away im memory for later;

 

 

I DISCOVERED HOW THE HUMAN MIND WORKS

Hi everyone, no big deal, im just documenting how the human mind works

So what’s a mind?

Our mind is where we process our thought  with all the things we can recall and our emotions

WHAT ARE OUR EMOTIONS

They are what gives us feeling when we experience something, but also they are much more..

When it started for everyone as a baby. mentally and emotionally they  were blank, and from theorm we developed our mind where we could think and every time we have a thought which is 1000s of times a day our mind auto thinks and every time our emotions think with it and leave a kind of feeling with the thought and over time you develop into who you are and all the why you are, and basically if you are to remember bits it allways adds up to who you are.  The mind is just us and cant be influenced by the past..

THE BIG THINGS’ 

So you will know that over your life there will be a lot of good and sometimes bad , there  will be a few that you always look back on and it feels good again. My whole life that is all i had was good memory’s. and guess what “?     you never think bad, i cant think bad because one i don’t know bad had and also it wouldn’t feel good as  my emotions.. Most people  work that way, i’m at the end where nothing bad happen.. The experiences, day in day out, just keep giving you feelings from your emotions and that s how you adjust through out your life. If its some good you experience then  it feel nice and makes you stronger and if its bad they make you weaker… I know ,robably better than any one in the world, but i never used to and i most people just have no idea all this is going on.. For a long time the best thing that ever happened to me was when i was ten years old ;i won a race 800m where i kick at the start and got in front and just didn’t stop. I still remember bits of the race even the feeling i had at the time are still there, those memorise still make me stronger today and still determine who i am, bit that not the bit i remember. i finished and went up to my mum or my step mum and i was just so excited and and she was just there at the perfect time with a huge hug and my emotions went through the roof. and that what that do they leave there feeling on your experiences and it so real for the rest of you life that you feel it and they are amazing things..

VERY AMAZING

Because they are part of your every thought they are virtually in control of you and who you are. You mind can thinka and motions, I have never had anything bad happen so a lot of my e.t]ons are strong and i never had problems mentally. I was just very lucky my whole life.. But wou have a few differnet emototions and a problem i had for a long while was being laid back, but these are you so you cant see them. You see i was go and very competive, and i pretty smart\ i did good at school without trying. But what happened in detail  with out my opinion of my self was that right at the perfect age where you learning heaps but also start to think a bit and solve things with your own mind at 3.5 or 4 years old, where you even develop ways to think like thinking pattern , when was teaching me maths, and i cant remember imuch but i know it happened  as by the time i got to school at 4.5yrs old i was in the 3rd grad for maths, the other reason i remember was that she made me or it just happened, no probs, that i kisses her om the bare boob or flat bit at the time and it was nothing, but that little moment is the furtherest back  i remember, She would of been 7nit, nothing weird,  and it never happened again and i never thought about it again but still  40 yrs on, it must of felt then a teeny bit off and i must of felt if at the time or my emotions wouldn’t have that inprint on that silowet of memory recall even as it is so minor..At that age less than 4 with a little thing like that would not even registered in my, but your emotions, and there really weak and that stage ate always doing you good, to be that fine tuned to pop there head up a bum hair high and just give a tap that i couldnt even feel as it is a tiny bit of had an impact in my life… My boys are three and 6 and there is dicks going in faces and lying onto of each other in the bath and there got zero thought of anything, i only say it with a laugh but it a 4 percent i mean it and might say get you dick out od his eye to be funny, any way. The morel of the story is i was quite far ahead with  maths in kindergarten, And i stayed there to the end with out any effort.. I knew my maths eo when the maths was going i was interested,  i always understood maths and this trying to memorize formula seemed harder than getting an understanding; obviously i didnt know it at the time but i think in maths and alway have. so at sbhool i topped the state in maths with no study, i open up the book and i still remember it that you cant study once you know.. And thats a big thing when  .. English and the creative stuff i finished down the bottom. It was 6 weeks before the final  and in a economic depression and after 13 years of school i had switched off the whole way and had nothing, and had to get to uni as it was my only  option,first time studying was about 14hours a day for six week on nodoz till i fell asleep ….memorise  so my burning the blanket and waking at the desk in the morning and just kept going and like every it always turned out good. And i was very confident on the inside, being smarter than the rest gives you confidence, and with the big family always doing something is times for emotions to develop.. But one area i never develop was to believe a lot of thing that people believe, The way i thought was to turn the information into variables and solve it maths style.. And the bull shit storys or opinions never gave me info to solve things and i see it in real time and switch off, then when people want to know my opinions anout something, my answer would only be about i know why you believe it cant this and that and i dont give a fuck either way… , But always when i talking and stuff, when i know, i know, people be like you might be wrong, but processing that way does  not allow for wrong and it question that are wrong and beliefs, the maths is always right and when you think that way, you head is so clear that doubt and think or maybe i saw something, are never that for me.. i could drop acid as a kid and have al sorts of things floating around and to me thats exaxtly what they were.. Any how i will go back to that story later.

My passion is to help someone one day and those people don’t have all these memories that i do and there showing the emotions of what they have been through.

AWAY FROM HAPPINESS

Forgive me if you were going through a lot more than what i seem to be relating to, just that regular people find it hard to relate to the heavy stuff and switch off which is not the effect im looking for But emotions work with accuracy and they will react the same for anyone who was at that stage emotionally , but any thing negative right the way through does allow for someone to process there thought and start of circle thinking. Now im as tough as people get emotionally and would welcome a stupid comment of forget about it and move on but people dont need that when its not an optiin for this to occur, it will happen and there nothing a person can do about it unless they have this knowledge  and only i have it at present, So depending on what has happen to someone will infleuence what they are circling thought about and when you circle your thought the mind has a defence for that. The abuse isnt the problem ever its the permant reminder it leaves behind.. verys small problems with regularity will see a person start to suffer with a range of doubts that appear as you become weaker, The mind processes thing so fast that anything slightest negativity in nature cam have the effect of a mind circling that over and aver an basically attacking it own emotions that people are not even aware of the process ocurin..  The abuse i am talking about is minor but it will end in similar results.. And depending on the age you arr at and if there was someone to help you get through  can have exreme  outcomes.. When my parent split i was 18, all i got from it was that probably if you mum goes on a boat cruise by herself then i might getting near the end … and i still believe that a bit today and i felt that silly thing i said as i do think a bit simple at times, my older btother who would of bee 22 or so and i had never seen him loose his cool would go and drag her out of a pub and take her back home and he  nbursting at the seem about mum foing out which im not sue was that often, i missed that, but i rember him think what i though was extreme but good on ya, and its all because you relate your self to some one situation and you get your answer, which is nothing to do with getting that persom actually  help , . it didn’t register with me, but my brother certainly saw the situation from little brother point some how.. but he spent the next 10 years on his sofa, ventuting out family thing where i spot him some money at times to get some food, He never drank or did drugs and on his venture out of the dark cave come a barrage of go and get , i wasnt doing that to him but i had nothing to help him with other than some cash, and looking back at what he emotions been through and in his prime as well where he would had time to grow into a man would of been in constant decline.. everyone misses it , and i remember my mum begging me with desperation in her face please, he listen to you tell him to get a job is like dropping the fatal blow and not how emotions work at all, but i got lucky and happened to wake up and he was up and i remember it no having the real effect i though i could say but my brother was 14 and dad only moved a street away and he spent the next 3 years and then 10 years on his sofa by himself, with a good mum and dad and brotheres and sister as i didnt know the problem but fashoned some thing up that didn;t at least freeze him and he got off his sofa and drove 6000 km to where there was plenty of work and he made some big money for a bloke who did ten on the sofa…4 yeats later he quit his $3000 aw week job and dragged his new wife her kids which is  a great dad to and his to  which  made 6 of em back to where his family was who were telling him to stay  where he has a job, back into poverty virtually and is as happy  as a bloke can be, so hopefully you can see a couple of declines for things that come from nothing, i cant go into what most go through as i would sill not get up to what its really like but way past what you can handle.  but mental health is a big problem fo the actual people that  are running the show more than you believe in you minds.. I will tell you and again undertate it. firstly whst you think about all mental illness is not even relatable. and that its just suffering om a scale that normal people can not take. i cant and im as strong a normal there is, it a mass child abuse system, where illness start young and festers into multiple, where psych do not no the cause or the cure, which means they no nothing, the only thing they do know is that it comes from child abuse  and most of it is sicken abuse, and if you know about emotion which you dont but the abuser will target  the emotions for effects you can not get close to imagine, with schizophenia what is referred to often as people are familiar with it and psycch has al.ready built up this crazy vision that has no reflection on them and are by far calmer that the average male, bur schitzophenia and they will have others is a child abuse disorder, that even used to be called that and the voiced that appear when they get older stem from what they were going through in there head long after there abuser had gone, it requires certian emotions to suffer that are more of an issue around the age of 18, and its not the illness even that are causeing the suffering, The suffering is from what been drilled into there head and then backed up with server emotional abuse on top abd they never winge or complian that there .been through sjhit and surpress the memories, even hide them and take respoinsibility fot as no one else is.. They are like the illnes with numbers that cany compere to bi polar which is closer to 100  rather than 98% fromsexaul and other neglect and then there is bigger number with lots of illness who have got borgerline from being abused and rapped, and thats up around the 100% mark then narcissist m=and  psychopath that are not even a issue, but somethomg yo van rellate to you can  relate to there  to  and we still havert got into the area of my consern yet = that is cold abuse, with young children comeimg in  with psych. teenage gi,rls bwinf fed. lies even about what there medicatiomn does ,  And  then there is then children that aleo told here isyou  meds and welcone tp a life long multilple, load of illness,. thrsdr boys keep it goimg hard to the end and are lokingfoe the next victomsbi8ctom…. , they

 

it the zero  percent and that not becuase there nor strong enough for it.. These are all normal emotions that if you know about at, it was a negative reaction, probably more so that i had Its probably to late to fix mental health in any way , but if you want to fix anyone than this is where it is at.

 

The learning and the big adjustments to the mind occur when young. When you can focus in on emotions and how they react at a certain stage you are around ten times more effective in therapy, but when your the parent of a child. For my children things that could of taken months for em to develelop like can take days and then there

\ adjustment changes to you as well. And any question about psychology is a focus on there current state and the reactiion that will occurfrom there. If you have normal emotionsand and this knowledge then mental illness for you and your children will not be able to occur. It gives you extreme incite into other people as there natural reply is very certian. I am keeping it in the bounds of mental healthso thinking about mental illness will always involve cyclical thinking. And all mental illness is aboutan emotions declining to the level of the disorder and only then can thr disorder start to emerge, keeping with depression, it will occur when that emotion is the one effected

disorder then appears, then the thinking is weighted from the disorder. It is not the disorder that feels nad. its what you are thinkimg about that feels bad, And the disorder doesnt get effected by it or will it put away im memory for later

ADHD —- JUST CONFIDENCE AND THOUGHT

Fixing adhd is all about fixing confidence thought.. Extending thought

I hope that this gets to a few people and they experience what myself and three other dads experienced when our boys(sorry girls) all boys came out of ADHD simply cause we knew what the problem was and how to fix it.It will seem really simple but it normal to never get to what the problem ever was because we dont know about mental illness and how it works. And mental health don’t know about it either, so the smallest little problem never ends and its sad for me when the information is now out there but Psychiatry wont accept any input other than from there own community.

I should make it absolutley clear first that the boys were only 4,5,5 and six and it will be easier the younger they are. But its the same with all mental illness and it occurs when there is a problem in the mind that effect a there emotion that need to be developing  as thats what we do.  You have to remember also so that young kids are a very weak still emotionally, they drop there car or a bit tired and it could cause a melt down.  In my case around the age of 3.5 i noticed my boy losing a bit of confidence and more over i noticed he wasnt thinking much. He was going in the direction where he didn’t think to play with his toys, he didnt speak until someone else did and it was like a reaction without thought he would just disagree and then he would have to stop as there were no words he could think of.. And gradually this got worse and he was even mimicking his little brother lying on the floor as a 3 month old as the best thing, he could come up with, it got worse quick and i remember calling it zero confidence cause at the time i hadnt realized he brain stopped working. Then gradually his friends drop of real quick because he would interupted them to do what he wanted and he had nothing he could tell them after he interupted them,And things in the play ground sting hard when there that old.. i was catching on by now and i couldnt remember the last time he even said anything relevant,. They not thinking so there standing around trying to get an idea even to move from just standing in a spot and its most all about not being able to think which stemmed from losing attention span. i was beside my self and i didnt even think what to do i was just sad for the boy. He was like happy to even have you say something which at least it triggered him to  move and blurt out something.. Oh yeah i missed this important bit, as he losing attention and his thinking falling short he doing the wrong thing more often and you telling him no all the time and he doesnt understand that well why its no and it like stopping his thoughts even more. So its all things like that and i could repeat em over again a few times but one day he come home and had been bitten like ten days in a row, no mark or anything but i said to him, dont you care that he bite you and i remember it like it happen 2 seconds ago and it was the first time he had used his mind for so long and he said he is my only friend, so he had lost em all and his last one kept biting him cause my boy would interupt him the minute he tried to do something usually like being a bit quiet and having time to himself. So i rang a couple of dads and they were like NO, no problem here, so i rang the kindy and we were chatting and i got to the point and a meeting arranged and i said i only want the answer to this question only as they were not giving me anything and trying to get the biter out of the kindy on psych grounds, but i wanted to know why my boy was the only one being bitten, and i even knew the answer by now as i seen how he interupted ever time at the wrong time and i knew the little boy was a good boy.. But im at the stage of going out of my mind cause my boy is as good as fucked, the kindy dont even notice and couldnt answer my question why only my boy getting bitten and was talking about the bitter and i was going how can you not see he is fucked… And im a good thinker and just lucky i come to some fucking idea and i said i dont give a fuck how long it takes i will fix this and everything else can fuck off until its done, i was like trying to think what to do and i come up with i aint saying no i ain”t walking away we hang till he had enough and we just go and do what comes up’. But it was all confidence and attension to him and he knew i had wronged even but he was ready to give me another chance and at first i was helping him think a bit and always just talking and in no time at all after hours and hours he started saying some really cool thing again, and i said to a few people only at the five hour mark you here the special thing, It really was like he was there doing his best and there was no thought and it the parent who got to keep  that ticking over ever know and then cause they can loose confidence still in ther ability even to switch on and think.. Like there got to be encouraged to think and to think a certain way so they get an answer, and also that have to learn a few things all together at that age so they can think and sometime they might of missed something so there trying to think like all the other kids and they havent got all the learning, I didnt stop there as i was enjoying it now hanging out and he went right back to the very top and that bit of work made life easy and was loving to think and çonfidence, and i just worked it all out from emotions what to do.. Even the disorder though tells you what the problem is when you understand it, but instead of going into even lower confidence and less thought and that and getting more no and bored and everything they got that adhd that protects there emotion cause the disorder acts like that with blasting out words and not long attension span and heaps of erradict behaviour cause that still think fuck all and just doing the easiest stupid thin and you trying to make him listen or what ever and he always fucking up and not getting to the point were he here enough of what you say and the thinks and the acts its short spirt an quick thought and then change all the time. , But people never get the problem amd i swear if you were even aware of this emotions thing you be super parent with half the work. If it hasnt  been two many years it work for sure and 100%fixed like they never had it… Same as the other three blokes, they were like yeah of course.. but i ended up right into the mental health shit and worked every thing out why i am like i am and all that and just stuff like i was switch off for thirteen years, my whole school life for some subjects and was because i missed a bit or wasnt interested and thirteen years so there with no thought like maybe should listen or what ever. and no one noiticed and im bottom in these few subject with the complete doe does and matha i switch and confident and it was all good.. With adhd, like you might be saying something or argueing or fuck look at you phone or just not be there for you chi;ld and that all they see, there lifeline turning there back on  em and a he just cant work it out and mind isnt like grown ups that always thinking, nothing to think about it stoppes and a person just needed to be help.. You see it all the time with kids for years, like they be singing and there got no word that can rhyme or they can only focus on the tv, or cant put the shoes on and hoping you do it and things are always slacking off, even how they process dropping something when there young, you need to say its ok  and pick em up and show to stand and 2 second later its all good, buts when you aware, its just to easy and it all stick out. And once you know what to look for you get really good very quick and knowing anything before it comes up.. Its with everyone, its all easy after you been told’.. But this pisses me off  a bit, so i did a real detailed thing even all the dtuff me and him and how good it was to and the best thing i ever expirienced and made sure like that if someone did it then it would work for sure and i give it to a couple of blokes and they were like you found the cure or the cause and i would of been pumped and they introduced to a couple of research psych places and they wouldn;t even take it from there own.. They wouldn;t look and they not even looking at the problem and i know wm all ‘.. And thousand of places are all  not even looking at mental health and making all sorts of false cliams, but they wont even tell a parent something that will work and it take 5 minutes, and if there young its so easy even and im like you fuckers, kids everyone cause they wont even research the right area, and all there proof they ever had is this emotions bull shit and the whole world gone mad an will go mad for sure, we are all gonners and mental health has actually never had a break through mother fuckers

Youtuber job

Read below, i want anyone interested to email me with some particulars that describe who you are and why you can do the job… it requires virtually someones full attention, i expect to pay someone for a few videos and then an out come where even youtube income can be recieved.. Im looking for some who has a good offer that is not expensive to start off and if it causes big income in the form of revenue and further opportunities to be paid that reflects this earning… also to take into account that you will be the face of this project that will also give you a life time of opportunity as well as having the knowledge of how the mind work that i assume maybe of extreme value and responsibility… I need someone original, open minded, flexible most probably female who can draw attention and can also work hard and even help in how to express certain things so there understandable and logical.. It is not my strong point to be able to express my thoughts and i have gone so far past any one else about the mind that some things that are knowledge and make sense are not even been thought of before and will take a lot of explanation… im hoping to realease videos three of four days even less for shorter ones that are of someone talking, able to bring up diagrams and pictures often and have it all flow… It would really be a difficult task that requires even obsession like obsorbtion to undertake it. I would be sending you large articles written and then you would have to understand and get it on video and do all the other things that can grow a channel.. If you have a channel or access to one would also be a huge plus.. I am ready to go with endless amounts of big time stories i want out there…

 

So im looking for someone can digest the information and then make youtube video’s. I need someone who knows how to make videos and put them on youtube. Someone who knows how to get an audience, possibly knows how to get subscribers, can set up twitter, instagram, and whatever social media there is and link it all up…. Someone confident and wants to be famous.   I have discovered how the mind works and the causes of mental illness, which is the biggest problem in the world today. And it is very different to what is documented and what mental health think. The thing is mental health dont know the cause and operate under causes that have been proven not to be true and done so for a long time. And when you dont know the cause of something you cant fix it or even progress in the area. There has been no progression in mental illness at all and the problem is getting bigger and bigger… But there is mass amount of proof how different forms of abuse and social, and enviromental factors are the cause and ignored while research focus on things that are not even possible… There are some serious ethical mis conducts going on as well  in regards to medication for mental illness for every one and that includes young children with ADHD being medicated and no therapy or understanding of the disorder, teenages, young girls self harming and committing suicide and using psych drugs that don’t work and cause lasting damage and a life time of mental illness that can easily recover if there was therapy and an understanding of mental illness, but also mass amounts of abuse being ignored and the effect of abuse which cause various mental illness from a young age and suffering for the rest of your life… Many many other things… contraversial thing like medication, anti depressants and anti psychotic for chemical imbalances of the brain, when its know that it is not true.. And that medication doesnt not effect the mind or mental illnes at all and target the workings of the brain that are damaged long term, numbing emotions while mentally ill people accept they have a chemical imbalance and never get better, and the problem increases… Basically there are endless finding that are all new and the subject matter is endless. Also half of philosophy questions solved, and the whole lot links to gether perfectly and none of it can be disputed…. The task is far from easy though to get across this information as it is all new discoveries, so there is no one that has the knowledge yet to know if it is true, the information must be feed in a way that is understandable and that is not easy. Changing people belief is next to impossible and can get very defensive and stubborn and ignore it.. So it has to also be in the form of what is interesting and able to be digested and relatable.. Also personality disorders dont react the same as normal emotions and cant process information that is new or that targets the disorder, so not only offending mental health, but general people cant change there mind and mentally ill as well, so it has to be done in a way that moves away from peoples previous thoughts and sparks contraversay of negligence and cover up and decit of people including children from the people who we trusted with our mental illness… It is a completly closed society with complete governance of something they dont know the cause or the cure and what i will be documenting is no understanding of how the mind works or how mental illness works and not even close… Its takes hours to explain, bt in short it works like this that a person mind start to suffer when they constantly have thoughts circuling around in there head from some sort of abuse or not being taught how to think or handle problems, neglect, social factors that cause the mind to overthink. The constant thought of negative thoughts, along with cyclical thought causes emotions which get there signals from the brain to suffer, stop developing and get weaker as they constantly feel the thought from the mind.. It causes suffering to increase and spiral downward and not something that can go on for ever as the suffering would get to much for the mind to handle… At a certain point of suffering and depending on which emotions are being effected a type of mental illness starts to present itself to protect your emotions and halt the level of suffering at a level that is bearable… That mental illness has a purpose and not some unlucky random occurance… The type of mental illness reflects the abuse and that everyone who has been abused as a child is mentally ill virtually.. Then onto how you change once you are mentally ill, but the younger you are with emotions still developing the easier it is to recover if you know how it all works, then onto every little topic the mind can throw up can be answer if you know how it works .. Also when you just got this base knowledge progression can start to occur and can occur quickly and solve the worlds biggest problem….

How you become Mentally ILL

Did you know that we don’t really know how you can get mentally ill. We kinda of know a few factors where there seems to be a correlation. The main one is that some type of on going abuse causes mental illness. After that it all gets a little fuzzy and gets bogged down with  a lot of un proven theories. The main one is that genetics have a major role to play. I think or believe I have worked out or I guess have a theory backed up by a bit  of research of how you get mentally ill.  Its has nothing to do with genetics and more to do with being abused.  The human mind is not easy to explain the wokings of and can mostly only be theorised. I am not trained or have any knowledge of psychartry and all finding are a result of personal experience with logic applied. I believe that to ever find any type of a cure for mental illness, there needs to be an understanding how you first get mentally ill. For me a mental illness is a personality disorder such as depression, anxiety, adhd, etc. It has nothing to do with being crazy or agressive

I think technology is advanced enough to of found or taken an image of anything to do with being mentally ill by now.  There isn’t or will there ever be this tangible finding of how the mind works and the word mental needs to be taken literally as just that and to be seen as ones mentally is all in your head created from what your mind has been through over the course of your life. There will never be any DNA or genetic factors involved, with the correlation being easily explained. To date there is no image ever taken of a mental illness that would show DNA if there was any real possibility of there being any heridatary factors in play

.In short mental illness is caused by an individual going through certain  negative type things that have an effect on a persons mind causing there mental strength or what may be emotional strength to drop to levels where the on set of mental illness is likely.  Mental pain and suffering to the extent that is impacting on quality of life or level of happyness. At a certain low level of emotional strength, a personality disorder for example depression attaches itself to ones mentality that seems to keep a person at a constant low level of mental happiness often for the rest of there lives.

As I began to understand how the mind works, mental illness, our emotions and how human instincts work, I started to see how our mentality can only be made up from the experiences that we have been through from the day we were born. And that how we are emotionally and mentally cant come from any factors that we haven’t been influenced by. If we haven’t been through something or learnt it then we simply don’t know about it and thus it cant have any effect on our minds or our mentality.  There is a reason everyone of us is how we are and it comes down to the life that was firstly put in front of us onto how we have lived our lives and everything that we have done, learned or experienced makes up what we are mentally. That our mentality is just how we have adjusted to what we have experienced in life both mentally and emotionally

Most people don’t have a mental illness, but it is on the increase at an increasing rate and those who have a mental illness face a tough life. It is one of the biggest challenges the world faces today to understand mental illness and slow down the rate it is increasing at. For those who have a mental illness basically life has been tough. It seems hardly fair to be the subject of  some form of abuse, whether psychical, emotional or sexual, that has caused them such mental pain as to bring on a mental illness and now are suffering mentality often for the rest of there lives. This is not the best life one could hope for and nothing that the majority could fathom or possibly understand. The level of suffering first enjourded and then felt for the rest of ones lives is is impossible to imagine and only those who have experienced the pain can truly only know what its like.

I analysed how humans have developed through evolution and how perfectly we have developed over many millions of years where everything developed has a use to allow us to be able survive the test of time and enjoy life. A mind so much more advances than any other species that has this huge fault that occurs for some that makes there life hell made no sense to me. A problem that for some unknown reason seems to be on the increase and we don’t know the cause of it and doesn’t make a whole lot of sense either. How is it that most minds adapt to our lives that we have built up over time while some of us get mentally ill could not be just down to the luck of the draw. How life is simply could never come down to that for me. There is a reason we get mentally ill and I think its important to know why.

If you look at someone when they are first born there mind and emotions are virtually a blank canvas. We are just this little baby who is going to learn from what we are taught and what we go through then on to being able to work things out with our own brain and make decisions and on to life choices for our selves. But a big thing we don’t understand is how a new born baby with its mind being a blank canvas is also starting from zero in terms of its emotional strength. We need also to learn how to get emotionally stronger that allows us to cope with what this life is going to put in front of us and to give us our level of happiness.

There are things we go through in life that make us stronger, and  there are also things in life that make us weaker as well with the over all out come being our level of mental strength. If the outcome is low there are dangers then of becoming mentally ill as we encounter difficulties during our life, while those who are made strong are able to handle lifes problems as they occur a lot better due to there mental and emotional strength. When we experience something in life as humans we feel something. Those things that feel good make us stronger while some things in life make us feel bad that make us weaker. It gives us our human instincts. We tend to do what makes us feel good on the inside.

This is the missing link in the mental health that has never been considered. Some people, due to how they have lived there life since birth have turned out not as strong emotionally as what you need to be and have not been able to stay in some sort of range where mental illness is not an issue. Whilst child abuse is at the forefront of the reason of getting mentally ill, there is this other section of people that were never abused or what considered abused, but have lived a life where what they have gone through was not able to make the emotionally strong enough to stave off any mental illness as life has gone on. For no reason or something has happened that has sent them over the edge and into mental illness.

I often refer to becoming emotionally week as a child, but it can happen at any stage in life. I believe it is more of an issue when young though as emotions and mentality are developing rapidily and much easily changed. Also children are dependant and not able to make there own choices when faces with emotional adversity against an adult who is often able to get away fro bad situations.

So what are these things that make us emotionally stronger from the day we are born. There are many things and again its generally the things that make us feel good on the inside. This is the basic of human instincts. When we get a feeling on the inside that feels good it makes us gravitate to do that again as feeling good is what we want in life.  This is all a baby has at first and the ability to cry to gain emotional strength. .  All a new born can do is cry to alert someone that something is wrong. They cry, someone comes and tends to them usually being hungry or in need of effection or something simple like this and it makes the baby feel good.  A little baby can only go after this feeling of what feels good as a way to learn and get stronger. Cry in distress and be calm when everything is alright.

Over time the following effect occurs. Baby gives off signals and gets fed, other signals and goes back to sleep, other signals to get affection and then on to signals because there in need of entertainment. Each time building up an extra miniscuel of emotional strength to add to itself along with learning how to communicate and taking everything in around them to start developing there brain. Because you feel everything inside from the thoughts in your mind, the more you experience as a baby the stronger you will be becoming. It also builds up the bond between the parent or who ever is around and for a long time in life someone is dependant on the parents for everything and basically there survival.  As a young baby everything you learn and experience will be from those around you generally your parents and how you are will be a direct result of what you have experienced. Your blank canvas of a mind is only able to adapt to what it experiences the best way it can and this is human instinct. If you were not cuddled enough as a baby for some reason you will not have that dependence on a parent for effection like some people, but also all those cuddles that make you feel good on the inside and increasing your emotional strength will of been missed out on as well. For many reasons some people don’t have all the required things in there up bringing to have them be emotionally strong enough. Some parents when it comes to being emotionally there for there children are better than others. This is not to say that a person cant get emotionally stronger as they grow up through other means and be mentally and emotionally strong in life.

The key is to understand what are the things that make us feel good inside and emotionally strong. Words like being positive, encouraging, loving, entertained, learning, playing, fun, laughter, hard work, active, proud, gaing praise, support, back up, communication, friends, reward, new ideas, exercise, responsibility, fun in the sun, freedom, confident, giving, sharing,  experiencing new things, active are some words to describe things that make us feel good on the inside and emotionally stronger. If your a someone who reflects on a child hood with these feelings then you will be mentally strong and away from any mental illness.

Things that give us a bad feeling inside and emotionally weaker are negativity, toxic, selfish, bored, sad, self centered, got things to easy, ignored, bullied, put down, not encouraged, shouted at, not praised, no fun, unsafe, too much worry, insecure,  unsure, misunderstood, abused, broken family, fighting, too busy to notice are words that reflect things that make someone mentally and emotionally weaker and if your life has been this kind of thing then you will be sucseptable to mental illness if your weak.

It doesn’t have to be one sided like this, as a child you may have had good and bad memories and the sum result is that your strong and some things made you even stronger. Negative or toxic thing often bounce right of someone who is mentality strong. . it may be hard to imagine a less than perfect childhood and how much it plays on peoples minds when they are subject to things such as abuse when there growing up that are far from ideal and how much it effects someone onto only having happy memorise and a perfect childhood.

Going back to the thought that there is this major glitch in human evolution that now seems to be getting out of control for me is not very logical at all. Our whole mental or emotional set up is there to guide us through life the best we can to ensure survival and happiness and then there is mental illness for those that have been abused in some way is against how it all works. Is it really a possibility that random people getting mentally ill for no good reason or has human evolution left us with mental illness for those who have been abused would be the cruellest of lives for some and no point to this being a possibility.

Whilst this can only be therorised, but comes into more of how human instincts and the mind works are the reason for mental illness and personality disorders. I believe that when a persons mental strength drops to a certain level that a personality disorder presents it self and then a person has a set way of thinking and is mental ill. The disorder is dependent on what the person has been through and different disorders reflect different kinds of abuse. The purpose of a disorder is to protect the individual from dropping to low emotionally to level that wouldn’t make survival the objective. Once you have a disorder the low level emotionally is more sustainable than the level possible with out a disorder. Humans are not able to cope emotionally from abuse from we are dependent on or who we seek praise from and is the bodies way of dealing with such. Its a protection from going to low emotionally and life be to bad to be able to handle.

No mater where your from a disorder acts the same with in everyone and shows that this is a straight attachment onto ones real personality

understanding how a disorder works and why is the key to ever understanding how to ever find a way of beating mental illness.

 

Mental illness. The cause and the cure part 1

One of the biggest challenges the world faces is the increase in mental health issues while there being no known reason for mental illness or any cure. Currently despite there being billions and  billions of government dollars injected into the area throughout the world the current state is that we don’t know what causes mental illness, there is no cure for mental illness and our understanding of mental illnesses and personality disorders is not progressing.

Through a series of unlikely events and some unplanned research, I believe I have gained a knowledge of mental health where im 100% confident I understand the cause of mental illnesses, a philosophy of why we get mental illnesses and on to the cure of mental illness.

When I say cure for mental illness, I mean that I understand a process or processes that would help some mental illnesses and a direction for those with in mental health and suffers to focus on that gives hope of getting out of mental illness.  But the main focus of thinking about a cure comes in time as people get the correct knowledge base of the cause of mental illness and like all parts of our rapidly changing environment, the human brain can solve many of lifes puzzles when it has the correct information to process.

The area of mental health is so large that it is going to take a lot of time to start to explain what is the cause and cure to mental illness. Its not a matter of there being one thing that is tangible and can only be claimed as to the solutions to some of mental healths biggest questions. Everything written has come from personal experience and nothing from what has been documented by others. I have none of the taught knowledge there is today into mental health.  I assume what is documented about mental illness to be some what wrong as currently we don’t know the reason for mental illness.  Everything I went through in general life and then onto doing a kind of research with out knowing in support groups from those with mental illness.  The reason im so confident that I understand the cause is that everything seems to link up and fit together and it is different to anything documented in the past.

I knowledge of mental illness until I had children with a partner I didn’t know very well at the time who seemed to have some kind of disorder that was causing the kids to not cope very well in life. It turned out to be a disorder that targets the mentally of its own children.  I went onto find support groups for people with mental illness and discovered that depending on how someone had been abused would determine the mental illness that a person would get.  I also had secret video that my partner took of the emotional abuse that she was doing to the children that explained why my kids were deteriating mentally while we were still living together.

I don’t think my knowledge of mental health is the solution to any problems. I think its more of a base knowledge that if ever followed would lead to further developments in mental health as better minds and people begin to understand the cause of mental illness. Personally I think no matter what is documented about mental health wont really change a thing and current ways and research will continue till the very end with no advances in mental health.  I am 100% confident that with the current teachings of mental health in place at the moment that zero progress will continue to be made as it doesn’t give any hope of going anywhere when it doesn’t make sense or definitive in any way. You cant solve something when you have been taught the wrong basics to begin with.

A big problem within mental health is that the general population doesn’t understand anything about mental health and have been taught things like crazy people, while those in mental health have there knowledge that doesn’t go anywhere to helping those with mental health issues, all while those suffering from illness are not listened to and have disorders that others are not able to relate to with a system busting at the seems with mentally ill people with no directions to fix any of them.

The first thing to establish that is clearly not at the present in the thoughts of those involved in researching mental health is that mental illness is all mental. That is that ones mentality whether ill or not is derived from what a person has gone through mentally. If a human has not gone through something then mentally they will not even be aware of it and can play no part in ones mentally. That a mental illness comes from factors encountered by ones mind after there birth and will continue to the day you die.

There has probably been a million research studies undertaken and none of them will ever be able to show you a picture taken of ones mentality or of mental illness or anything to do with what’s mental from a human or any animal. We have the technology to be able to image just about anything and if something doesn’t exist in substance it certainly wont be able to be passed on genetically. Its imposible and doesn’t make any sense that it could happen. Mentally is all about whats in the mind and the mind is all about what our thoughts are and that can never be seen.  DNA needs to be attached to something to be passed on and nothing has ever been proven in this regard, yet when you come into mental health, one of there primary concerns is the history of mental illness with in the family. If something was to be able to be passed on genetically then it would of been proven by now and dna would be attached to the part of the mind being passed on to the next generation.

It makes total sense that there seems to be a correlation with hereditary mental illness though as those people who have been exposed or raised by someone with a personality disorder have had a different mental up bringing than those from someone not mentally ill.  People with personality disorders act and behave in a different way to those with out personality disorders and in some cases expose there way of thought onto there children and that becomes there way of thinking also. A child after all can only learn from what it is being taught. This is not something that is the case with all people who are mentally ill who raise children, its just a reason that there exists a correlation and a focus away from people just mysteriously getting a mental illness.

I for one can say that how I turned out mentally is from what I went through mentally from birth. I had a relatively good up bringing and never had to suffer mentally. Im the only step child in our family, but mentally im the same as my brothers and sisters and parents. I met my mother later in life for the first time and mentally was different to her and she had various minor mental illnesses by the look of it. Despite calling my step mother, ‘mum’ I wasn’t treated the same and don’t have that same connection with her as my brothers and sisters.  And everything I went through mentally shaped me into the person I am today.

This doesn’t mean that someone who is mentally ill was abused when they were younger and far from it despite abuse being the main cause of mental illness. But if mental illness has come on early in some ones life then they have gone through certain things that effected them mentally. It could be a range of things from being given things to easily to a toxic parent to abuse suffered. Every thing that you been through is going to shape you and if what you have been through has made you mentally weak then you subseptable to getting a mental illness as time goes by.

And its the same with many animals on this earth. Take the most known pet, the dog. Everyone knowns that a dog will turn out how its been treated. Treat em good, feed and walk them, play with them, love them, and they will be happy great pets. Kick them in the guts and they will be scared of people all there life and have a miserable life. Ignore them or leave them in a yard bored all day and they will be depressed and not turn out into that loving pet. Teach em to hunt and they still be placid around people and other dogs while being able to kill wild pigs.  They will protect the house and even lead the blind when taught right. If a dog is acting scared of a person I think we know what may have happened, While all the dogs you see being walked are happy as and never bite anyone. Never will they turn into a dog that isn’t explained by what they have been through and it is the same for humans. Its just what do people go through that can be so bad for there mental health later in life.

The main thing that I have discovered and that lacks from any mental health teachings is the role of human emotions within mental illness or mental strength. That what we go through mentally is felt by our emotions and the outcome overall is our mental strength or weakness. Certain thing we do or go through make us stronger, while somethings make us weaker and for some what they go through, through no fault of there own has made them into a person that is weak emotionally and mentally and increased to likelihood of falling into mental illness or developing a personality disorder that makes there life very unpleasant.

So what are human emotions and how do these end up in the conversation for the cause and the cure of mental illness? answer— emotions are what you feel on the inside after you go through something. The human body after it has gone through an experience gives you a sensation you feel on the inside that makes you feel either good, if your emotions liked what you were exposed to or a bad type feeling when you were exposed to something your mind did not enjoy.

Emotions are like your human instincts. They give off a nice feeling to somethings to make you want to go and do this sort of thing again and again as the body will gravitate to this nice feeling it feels. While things the mind or the body don’t enjoy give off a negative type feel on your insides and this is your emotions warning you that what you experienced is not good for you and to stay away from this if possible.

Emotions are like your gardian angel trying to guide you through you life telling you whats good and what is bad, hoping that you will enjoy the good feelings it gives you and gravitate to those things.

But when your first born a human emotions and there brain are virtually a blank canvas and have to learn and be taught everything. We can only learn from what we are exposed to and our emotions can only develop to adapt to what a person goes through in there life. A young child’s emotions just try to react the best way they can to the life that it has encountered which is basically the life that a parent gives you at first.

How emotions get there signal is from the brain, Every time you experience something you process this information in your mind or your brain. When you process this it is felt by your emotions and give you a feeling inside. Thousands of times a day your mind process something you experience. When its good it feels good, it also strengthens your emotions. When you get a bad feeling it weakens your emotions. So the more you get this bad feeling the weaker you become emotionally. At a certain level you can become mentally ill.

Emotions are built strong enough to be able to handle everyday wear and tear and do not become dangerously weak easy. They need to go through a continuous type barrage of negative feeling before they turn into a mental illness. So you need to be continually alerted with this bad feeling your emotions give to you before any mental illness becomes prevelant. And its how the human mind works that sometimes gives the signal to emotions that they don’t enjoy.

When you experience something you enjoy, your mind accepts this and you enjoy that feeling, you probably remember it and you don’t question it within your mind. you move on to experience the next thing in life, but the mind reacts very differently when it experiences something it doesn’t like.  The mind tries to solve all of lifes puzzles it comes across to give you the best chance of enjoying your life. Our human instincts try to solve our problems we have and that’s just the way we work. We will think and solve a problem for as long as it takes and any problems not solved remain in our mind. And when we constantly or cyclically think of something our emotions continually react to our thoughts and we can get a continually bad feeling inside of us from our emotions making us gradually weaker. When there are continual negative things happening there is often a build up of things in our mind that we are trying to solve and our brain becomes cluttered with negative type feelings and its not something we enjoy.

Being an adult we are ale to make decisions to solve our problems, but as a child we are in a dependant state from generally our parents and not only cant solve problems as you cant leave, your also dependant on them to try and fix your problems for you. For a number of reasons this may not always happen and life is difficult and not enjoyable for all children.  Mental illness comes often at an early age, but also a child who has not had the best childhood may get to being an adult emotionally weak or with some kind of issue that doesn’t allow for them to enjoy life or puts yo at a disadvantage of what people are trying to generally achieve and that’s a life they enjoy with a job and often one day a family etc.

Children that are just straight up abused either mentally, sexually or physically are pretty much always mentally ill or having various types of personality disorders.  Human emotions are built strong and can handle a lot. They continually adapt to ones life to give them the best chance of happiness but were not built to be able to handle being abused by those they are dependant on, or were they?

Humans have developed over many millions of years and like animals adapt to there environment. Is it really possible that there is a completlety random mental illness that strikes so many people making there life a living nightmare for nothing. What would be the point of evolution working like this. Everything developed over these millions of years seems to be for a reason and then something like emotions which is our human instincts developing a mental illness for no reason or to make out life hell is not really a possibility. There is a reason for mental illness or personality disorders and its our emotions protecting them selves from on going abuse and becoming to weak.

As someone gets continually weaker emotionally and not enjoying there life, a low level is hit and someone becomes mentally ill. It may be depression or anxiety or ADHD at first. Once you have this mental illness a personality disorder attaches itself to your way of thinking and makes your life a living nightmare, the same as what was happening to your life before you became mentally ill. Once you have a mental illness though it protects you from continually going down emotionally to levels way more unbearable to the level you feel with having a mental illness. It is the bodies way of alerting you to fix yourself from this low level and protecting you from going through life to emotionally low and not wanting to survive. Human instincts are always to survive and the basis of what we are trying to achieve. If some animal didn’t have these instincts then long ago that animal would of died off or never existed in the first place.

It was the first thing I noticed about someone with a mental illness, is that a personality disorder is an attachment to there way of thinking and not really the persons mentality at all. Some one with mental illness will often complain about there not being able to be understood by people. That’s because they are thinking like this disorder makes them think now and rational advice doesn’t apply to them as they have this set way of thinking depending on the mental illness.  It doesn’t matter if where your from, sex, religion age that once you have a certain mental illness you will virtually be thinking the same as someone else with the same illness.  But people from different regions throughout the world are totally different mentally and nothing in common, but if you join a support group for example depression, the whole lot of them will all be thinking the same.

And that goes on for each mental illness. Giving advice that is logical to a normal person is not something they can relate to as a personality disorder is doing the bulk of there thinking for them.  Its extremely important to understand within mental health that a personality disorder is the human mind natural response from emotions becoming to weak and making life un enjoyable and that it is an attachment to the way of thinking and not ones real thought or natural thought process. Its important for the person concerned to know this also as they feel they are logical in the way there thinking and is not obvious to them that they have attachment to the way they are thinking. But there is no way that people from different walks of life think the same unless this disorder is a kind of a set way of thinking to protect the mind and emotions from and the human itself from wanting to end it it all and away from our primary goal of survival.

But it is also important to realise that a set way of thinking means you cant change a personality disorders way of thinking and to try to change the disorder is literally impossible. But the way disorders work is that given time to think, they take over the thinking of someone. When a person is busy or consumed by something mentally the disorder stops being part of the mind set temporily. That changing your life might be the only option to getting out of mental illness. By changing your life I mean limiting the time the disorder has the time to think for you giving you a negative or bad feeling inside and that would generally require keeping your mind active through activity and hence destracting the disorder and allowing for your own mentality to come through. But what happens when you have an active mind is that you are allowing your emotions to feel things that they feel as positive and making you emotionally stronger and out of mental illness.